I’ve had a horrible case of ‘bloggers/writers block’ this whole month and it has been awful, so I’m incredibly sorry that I haven’t been updating my blog, I’ve just had no idea what to actually right about. Sadly, this is still the case, but I’m attempting to write this post anyway. This isn’t a beauty or fashion related post, it’s actually something a little deeper and more personal, though I felt like sharing it with you guys. I do hope that maybe it’ll help some of you out there as well.
For quite a while I’ve dealt with horrible self-esteem and confidence issues, like many others would have dealt with also. As I also suffer from anxiety, this on top of my existing confidence problems have seemed almost unbearable at times, and have caused great problems in my life, as well as held me back from doing all the things I’d love to do. For far too long I’ve just let this happen, and I’ve let myself be a victim to this horrible thing, but not anymore! A few weeks ago I decided to seriously overcome this seemingly never ending battle, and since then I’ve seen such great improvements in my life.
I thought I would share this with you guys because perhaps you are where I was not too long ago; feeling incredibly sad and down all the time. I should also mention that this wasn’t a quick fix and everything’s suddenly perfect, and I’m not naive enough to think that I’m never going to have bad moments again. I know that this is a constant battle that I'll be fighting, but for once I am finally feeling genuinely happy and confident and I’m overcoming my anxiety and these are massive steps for me!
My struggle with confidence issues has been a main problem for me for many years now, as I have never seen myself as beautiful or wonderful and I’ve always seen myself in a negative way. This is definitely not healthy! I actually don’t know how it came to be that I decided to change the way I viewed myself, but somehow it happened. I try to focus on the things that I do love about myself, instead of focusing on my flaws. I was getting my hair and makeup done for a photoshoot a few weeks ago (this was a massive step for me, the fact that I actually went and did it, I kicked anxiety in the butt that day), and the makeup artist and I were chatting and she asked me if I liked getting my makeup done by professionals, and I said that I did but I was always really self-conscious and worried that they were noticing all my flaws. She said something to me then that really changed my mindset in such a drastic way, she said that they were only flaws if I saw them that way. To you, that might not mean anything special, but to me it meant everything.
Since that literally life-changing day I have chosen to embrace my ‘flaws’ and focus on happiness and loving myself. Now this hasn’t necessarily meant that every time I look in the mirror all I see is good things, of course not, I’m human! I’m not 100% happy with my body or my looks, but God has created me this way and he thinks that it is beautiful, so I am really trying to see myself in a more positive light. I’ve spent far too long criticising myself, and decided that enough was enough and I didn’t want to do that anymore.
Basically I just want to remind you all that you are beautiful. Don’t ever let anyone tell you otherwise. I wasted far too many days and moments speaking negative things over myself and that amounted to nothing. So stop speaking negativity over yourself because nothing good comes from it! If you switch to speaking positive things over yourself you will see such a difference! At the end of the day it all comes down to you and the way you view yourself, that’s how change will happen. No matter how many lovely, positive, uplifting things people speak over you, if you don’t choose to believe it yourself, it all means nothing.
It’s almost Spring here in Australia, and that is the season of new life. I feel like it correctly displays what is going on in my life at the moment too. I’m entering a season of new life, of positivity, of growth and flourishing. I feel really good and optimistic about the days that are ahead of me. I feel like good things are coming, and that makes me excited. Instead of being held back by myself, I’ve set myself free and am going to try and enjoy life and embrace all the opportunities that come my way, I hope that you can too.
I’d also like to quickly add that Zoe Sugg (Zoella) has helped me so much in embracing myself and overcoming my anxiety as best I can, and she wouldn’t even know it. Her constant reminders and raw honesty have helped me so so so much and I wish she knew just how much of a difference she’s made in my life!
Love you guys!
