I've been doing a lot of thinking lately. I've been thinking about absolutely everything. I'm still trying to find my place in this world, and I'd like to think that with every day that passes I inch a little closer. Last week was an interesting week for me emotionally, as I started the week thinking one thing and then ended it thinking something completely different. It felt like a very long week but I learnt more about myself and what I want then I have in a while, so I'm glad. A weakness I've mine that I'm coming to terms with is that I can get swept up in something too fast, and I don't actually think about whether it's what I really want. I need to remember to take a few deep breaths and think about who I am and what I want before I let my emotions take over.
I've been trying to brainstorm possible career options and things that I'd love to do and I'm finding it to be so difficult. But I am pressing on and trusting God when He says that there is something perfectly suited to me out there. I know He's got this, I just need to relax. Stressing and making myself anxious about it won't do me any good in the end. However, I did stumble upon something that looked really great, so we'll see if anything comes of it!
The weather here in Sydney has cooled down and the sky is looking much more grey these days, which I personally love! It's reminding me of being in England and that just makes me so happy, but it also makes me miss England and my little family over there. Those 2 months were so magical and glorious and I still pinch myself every day because I can't believe I actually got to go there! It's been my dream for about 8 years and then it became my reality. God is so good. Even if the wait seems long, it's always worth it.
Right now I have a lot of free time and I'm doing my best to use it productively (which is actually what led me to write this blogpost). I'm also trying to write a book. But boy is it hard!! I can't even pick a basic plot outline, so we'll see how that goes. At the moment I just have random paragraphs of writing in a few different notebooks and on a few different word documents, but nothing seems to be coming together cohesively yet.
Something else I want to quickly mention is that a few weeks ago I received the most beautiful email from a lovely girl who spoke such kind words into my heart. She's also the reason that I'm writing again, actually. She reminded me that my words can have a positive difference and I shouldn't lose sight of why I began writing this blog in the first place (and it was to inspire others). I want YOU to know that you're not alone. Whatever journey you're on, whatever season of life you're in, I'm here for you! More importantly though, God is here for you!
"As for me, I call to God, and the Lord saves me. Evening, morning, and noon I cry out in distress, and he hears my voice..." - Psalm 55:16-17
"The righteous cry out, and the Lord hears them; he delivers them from all their troubles. The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit." - Psalm 34:17-18
God is listening and He cares. He cares so much that He sent His Son to die for you. All your troubles and your sadness was taken care of on the cross. So why do we still hold onto it? I'll admit I'm not good at letting the heaviness go either sometimes. But if you really think about it, it is pretty silly that we still hang onto it. There isn't any point, it doesn't do us any good. So let go!
Well there you have it, that's today's ramblings splashed onto the page. As per usual my brain is always thinking many things at the one time so hopefully this post made some sort of sense. Just think of it as a little update I suppose, with more to come soon! Oh and if you ever want to chat you can tweet me (@samindigo13) or send me an email at samindigo13@gmail.com
Love, S.
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